
I turn the future over and over again
in my mind as if rubbing a fetish stone.
Setting it down is hard when I expect
to arrive in the future in due time.
The problem with the future
is that it can only be based on
my expectations about the future,
and my expectations are based on
things as I know them to be now.
What I cannot know in this moment
is what I will find in the future
that isn't on the map of my expectations.